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September 17th, 2008
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It’s 5am.
Quite quiet.


All I hear –
the clock ticking.

A reminder
of time
of life
of death.

Time, life, death:
so ephemeral
so precious.

Talking

August 23rd, 2008

I stop talking.
My heart quickly
starts talking
in sublime serenity!

Why do i talk
to myself:
so much,
for so long?

May be I will
simply stay silent,
and watch me
as i start to talk.

May be I will
quietly listen
to my heart
to your heart
and feel the love.

Daddy Comes Home

June 29th, 2008

Daddy Comes Home

October 19, 2005


It was last night. It was Sharat Purnima — the full moon of the Divine Goddess, Kali. We had been dancing 5-rhythms for over 3 hours. What a dance! Over the past two weeks, it was goddess dances all over Silicon Valley, to celebrate Durga, Kali, Shakti, Jagadamba - the feminine principle in all of us. And last night, with the early morning eclipse and the full moon, we saw Kali in her full-blooded glory. It marked the de-construction of Mother Nature. The monsoon harvest - kharif. The beginning of autumn, falling leaves. A reminder that spring would follow in six short months.With this backdrop, I went home. It was quite a bit late, so I dozed off pretty quickly.Early morning, as the sun rose, I heard the knocking of a hammer in the newly built family room. With the recent remodel, our “bright room” as we call it, is used sparingly at night, until kids get up. So I was surprised to hear the knocking. I wondered if it was our contractor — but the construction was all pretty much done. May be, he had got into the habit of doing something in our bright room and our garage. So, I went a-peeping, cautiously.

Lo and behold, it was Daddy! He had always wanted to visit my home. Never got a chance to do so, because mom was always a bit sick. He didn’t want to leave her alone and travel the seven seas. So he never got a chance to be with us in California.

That is, until now! But…. something was wrong. Dad was in his usual shorts, going rat-a-tat-a-tat, hammering away. Next to him was a pile of ironed clothes, neatly folded and organized in ascending order by size. The iron was still steaming, having been well used. And dad was fully concentrating on the task at hand. On one hand, I was glad that he was at last here. One the other hand, I had no recollection of picking him up at the airport! That didn’t make sense. May be, my kid brother who lives nearby had picked him up, and left him here. But he had no keys, especially the new ones we had put in place!”Dad, you are not supposed to be here!” I exclaimed.

“Why not? Didn’t you want me to visit your home, all these years?” he asked.

“Yes, but… it has been exactly three full years since you passed away! Look, there is even a photograph of you here, days before you died. You can’t come here now! Please go back to where you now belong.”

“Well, I would. That is, if you paid any heed to what I always said. Why, look at all these clothes. They’ve been here for almost a week! You’ve been waiting for someone else to iron them, huh? And this shelf over here? How long will you curse the carpenter and the cabinetmaker? Didn’t I say, it is fun to do things with you own hands?”

“I will. I will. But, please go back to your new home, wherever it is,” I said, my urgency showing on each syllable.”Okay. But remember to call your mom. She is very much alive!”

He was still there, smiling. Playing with his upper fake incisor, like he always did. All I could do was sprint as fast as I can to my master bedroom, jump into bed, covering myself from head to toe. With a thud, I awoke.

Dad was speaking the truth all right. The whole truth. I have been wide-awake since. It has been three full years since Guru (as we loving shortened dad’s name, Gurudas) left us. He has been lurking in my consciousness every so often. At times, he pulls these nuggets out of my shadow, and gently taps at the door to my heart.

Your friend,

Shankar
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S.O.S.

June 15th, 2008

S.O.S.

 

I need help.

I can’t think of a poem.

 

I attempt to write a page on books

But I can never concoct a satisfying ending.

 

I dedicate a poem to music

But I can’t create a creative creation.

 

I try to incorporate rhymes

Although angry, arrogant words will refuse to rhyme with each other.

 

Thinking of a poem’s title

Takes me ten total tumultuous tiring hours.

 

I pen literature of magic and swords

Only to realize how pathetic the plot is.

 

Help! Help! Help! Help!

I need aid!

 

Wait a minute….

In writing this, I’ve created a poem!

 
-Anand Hemmady


nirvana

June 15th, 2008

in love with the universe

loving every bit of it:

the god and the goddess

in an eternal embrace!

-shankar

Anal

June 15th, 2008

Carefully I control

Every morsel in my mouth.

But when it’s time to shit

It’s simply what is!

Is it time to surrender?

-shankar

Through A Window

June 7th, 2008

I once looked

through a window.

I saw a family playing

and working

at the other end of the court.

That look

through the window

at my house

taught me

so much and

made me realize

the little aspects of life

that are so subtle

that we don’t

understand their impact.

I saw there was

about two streets’ space

between us,

and that window.

The space wouldn’t have mattered,

I could have seen them

and known that

they were real.

It was the window

that stopped me.

Through the window,

everything was unclear.

The window separated me

from their world.

I began to look at

a movie, or short clip,

not

real people in

a real world.

I questioned myself,

“Why does that window

make the difference?”

And I realized that

I look at my own life

through a window

sometimes.

Unsure of the boundary

between imagination

and reality.

I am insensitive to anything

sometimes,

and sometimes intimately aware

of everything around me.

This whole existence sometimes

gets thrown into question.

“Why are we here?”

“Who am I?”

and other questions like that.

At other times, I don’t even think about

such ridiculous questions,

my life too busy

for me.

But mostly,

I wish the window,

physical or not,

wasn’t so blurry,

wasn’t hiding anything,

didn’t separate people.

Everywhere we are,

we see little, tiny,

invisible windows

into the lives of

so many people.

We get a glimpse

of their entire lives

like seeing into a

window of a house.

Yet, we,

being who we are,

judge people based

on that little window.

The screen and glass

must never be dirty,

or blurry,

or stained,

they must be on their

best behavior at all times

or they will be made fun of,

or teased,

or just looked at as

different because of

that window.

Windows are

an everyday part of life.

You learn to deal

with them and move on.

No one really realizes

how important

these windows are.

They just are

what they are.

-Shona Hemmady

How to Be Liked

June 5th, 2008

Take charisma, kindness, discipline, friendship, loyalty, and common sense.

Carefully make a paste of loyalty until the result tastes sweet.

Add in a slight amount of friendship to blend with the paste of loyalty.

A little common sense should be used to spice up the mixture.

Cut up and sprinkle charisma and discipline on the top to add more sugar.

Enjoy the warm feeling of a friend.

Serve with care.

- Anand Hemmady

Stuck On Staccato?

March 28th, 2008


I thought I danced well, no?
Daughter said, dad, hell, no!

Like all men, you’re stuck on staccato.
At most, you go for some chaos, so?

Look at all them girls, how they flow.
And at times, they lyrically glow!

When will you learn to flow?
Don’t be afraid to blow.
May be go a bit slow.
At least try to row!
Don’t just croak
like a crow!

Sing the rhythmic song
that soothes the soul.
And dance to the music
not to a myopic goal!

Let that heart hear
those unstruck celestial chords.
Let that mind mind itself.
Just back up into your body
and feel the flow of the gods!

A Smiley For My Love

March 28th, 2008


Just trying to make you smile
just for a while
just so much
that you’ll
fall off
and
get back
into your heart
find your voice back
and the rhythm of your life.